We need the grace of pause. I feel like that's what this summer has been for us. When we press pause, we let go of expectations and agendas and take time to see what we need as well as what those around us need. We notice the Holy Spirit's agenda more so than our own and the Father's kindness toward us. So, in my attempt to collect all these pauses of grace and glimpses of my Father's sweetness... I'm learning to surrender and hear Him better.
We're preparing to become a party of 5 soon. If you would have told me that at 35 I'd be getting ready to start all over after having a 7 and a 4 year old I would have laughed. But you know, God. He certainly knows what's best. I've grieved what we lost for so long that I never considered the thought He'd return back double the blessing. Pressing pause has caused me to loosen my grip and let go of what I felt should be and look forward to what's coming. I'm not big enough to hold all things together, but He most certainly is! And while time, maturity in my role as a mom, and growing in my faith have all dispelled some of the usual insecurities of motherhood, I still feel like I'm doing this all over again for the first time. Rest and acceptance in the gospel truth that none of this depends on me is bringing freedom daily.
So this summer we'll keep reading, learning, growing, playing, seeking, and pressing pause. The abundance He gives is worth my letting go...
"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life." - Psalm 143:8